When things have been going a certain way for the majority of your adult life, the last thing you would expect is a sharp u-turn in the middle of it all. Well, that’s what happened to me and welcome to my little slice of blog world. Having a website named daybydaymom.com I better start with the beginning and how we got to this whole mom part.
I’m sure a lot of things happen in a Target bathroom and frankly I am positive I wasn’t the first one to experience this but I will never forget the moment when I saw the yes+ on that test.
Only 3 weeks prior I nearly totaled my car after hitting a deer at a speed higher than the posted limit. I was running late for lunch with a friend I had pretty much pushed away over the course of 10 years; thank goodness for forgiveness and good food. And for the win, I really had to use the bathroom.
Let me explain that I am a planner, so much, some might say it is to a fault but none the less, it’s who I am. While, for the past 11 years I was told over and over again I would never had kids, I would still periodically take a test even if I was 1 day late just to make double and triple sure that I had no reason to say to the dr ” you were saying?”
So there I was, at Target, taking a pregnancy test. I mean why not, it was in my bag and aside from being a planner I am a chronic multitasker. Getting my stuff together to walk out of the stall I quickly glanced just to make sure it said no and there it was. yes+
Wait, what? Now really late to my lunch, I had at least one phone call to make and it wasn’t to my husband (who was still working and living in Montana, we will get into that later) but rather to my best friend whom I asked to please make sure she was sitting before I went on with the reason for my call.
I know that you will hear much more about my friends so I might as well fill you in on them as well. I mean really, we are all one big, trying to be the best mom we can be and it takes an army kinda community right?
Say hello to Christina, the afore mentioned person I told immediately about this little pee stick. She and I have been friends through everything, we had battled the same hard truths and shared in so many of the same extreme joys. However, this upcoming lunch wasn’t scheduled with her. She lives too far away for a last minute lunch get together, although I am sure either one of us would gladly drive 5 hours just for lunch if we could. Instead this lunch with Mary was something about 10 years overdue. For years and years I found my self far more interested in other things than fostering the lifelong friendships that I had been blessed with from the beginning. I don’t know what got into me but the fact of the mater was I was ready to make amends and move forward.
I always told myself, if the time came that I was ever pregnant I wouldn’t tell more than about 3 people but we hit the reset button on a friendship and my list of 3 started to grow. I got back to work and filled in a couple more of my closest friends, both of whose reactions were likely heard from the outside of the building and oh yes, I still hadn’t told my husband…yet #montanacitizen
Here’s the raw honest truth: I look back on that day in awe that it was even real and I chuckle knowing I found out where I did but it’s truly beautiful what comes from a life altering trip to Target. For real though, it was something I never expected to happen. Over the course of however long this blog ride goes I just want to be another voice out there that says “you matter, you are strong, you are beautiful.” So let’s take a deep breath and take on this mom life day by day.